Dear God, are You mad at me? No, not mad because horrible things are happening. Right now, I feel totally blessed with everything in my life. But, as life moves up and down, yes, I have asked this question more than once. :) (I'm human.)
As I tell my story, let me start off by saying that Reiki is NOT a religious practice. It is not based on any religion at all. And yet, I couldn't help but wonder how does it all fit in with my own beliefs?
When I went to my very first Reiki class, I hadn't a clue really what I was doing! I knew that it had to do something with energy and I knew that it worked. I was in so much pain with a shoulder/neck issue, at that point, I didn't care what it did as long as I could get rid of the pain! If you have ever been in pain, really bad pain, you know what I mean. The kind where you will gladly sacrifice something important if you could JUST. GET. RID. OF. THE PAIN.
Anyway, I walked in, learned about Universal Life Force Energy (in my life, I call that God but I respect not everyone does), received my attunement, and went home. Practicing Reiki on myself, my dogs, my cat, my plants...basically anything and everything I could. I witnessed some true healing, and I was in AWE! I received my Level 2 attunement as I was happily going on my way, sharing this energy with anyone needing it, wanting it, and I so believed in it. I mean, seriously, why wasn't EVERYONE doing Reiki???
And then it happened. The big question from a well-meaning friend : "Do you really think you should be doing that?" It fell out of her mouth and plopped on the floor right there at my feet. I stared. I started thinking what is this person talking about? What am I doing wrong? This person went on to say that only God can heal, it is only through the power of Jesus Christ that we can be healed and be saved. I was accused of practicing some sort of evil magic squarely against God's commandments
Now, I was raised Christian and we didn't go to church often, but I always had a very personal relationship with God, with Jesus, and I always operated out of a place of love. I never saw it as being MY energy. I was simply a channel. But, also, not being terribly sure of myself at the time, and still having so much to learn, I found myself asking: Dear God, are you mad at me?
I became so worried. so anxious, that somehow someway I was insulting God, turning away from Jesus, that I quickly turned away from Reiki and all types of energy healing. It was a painful, although necessary, period for me. Necessary because I needed the confirmation and commitment to my own beliefs and time to figure out just exactly what my beliefs are. I was very upset at first with this person, but I learned to be grateful. Had this not been asked of me, I would have not-so-mindfully gone about my life without a solid core of what my own beliefs even are! I HAD to answer that haunting question: Dear God, are You mad at me?
These are my own personal beliefs. I wanted to share them in case someone else, you even maybe, are struggling with the same question.
For me, Reiki is God. God is the Universal Life Force Energy in us all.
Even in many churches they practice the laying on of hands for healing. So, somewhere the church even accepts this. But, even more, my God is a God of love. Jesus is the embodiment of God and what did Jesus do? He taught us to love one another, help one another, bring kindness and healing to one another. God is pure loving energy present in everything and everyone on this planet. Free will determines what we do with that, or if we even turn away from it. It is our right. But, I am not turning AWAY from God, I am turning TOWARDS God.
God is the beginning and the end. He IS the life force, and He did not just tell us to sit here while He does all the work! We are INSTRUMENTS of Him. Just like crystals and cards and hammers and screwdrivers or any other tool we use, God made those. They are OF God. If you wanted to put a board over a broken widow, would you not touch a hammer? Would you wait for God to come here and nail it up for you? Would you wait and say only God or Jesus Himself are to fix things?
Dear God, are you mad at me?
So, here is my answer, after much meditation and prayer and asking for Divine guidance: No. God WANTS us to spread love and healing and teach the ways of love. Do My work as I have commanded, use My tools, and be a force of LOVE.
Many Blessings on your path,
For further reading, please visit the website: www.christianreiki.org and you will find several examples supporting this type of healing in the Bible.